Spending these summer days with you bb girl are some of my favorite. 💕 (even if your facial expressions say otherwise 🤣) Preganancy + Covid and Maternity Leave + Quarantine were truly some of the hardest days. But the silver lining through this all is the extra special time we get to share as a family of 3 (and Millie and Lambeau). Those midday family walks and lunch breaks full of baby smiles are moments I want to cherish with every ounce of my being. I’m someone who fully believes there is a reason for everything. I know each and every one of us are struggling in some way when it comes to what’s happening in the world right now, but we all have tiny blessings hidden in this chaos. We just have to slow down enough to see it. My tiny blessings today is this handsome #girldad and #mywildgirl What are you slowing down to cherish today?
Happy first Father’s Day to the greatest man I know. I loved you the day I met you, but watching you become a daddy to sweet Ellie Jo has made me fall in love with you all over again. Grateful to be your girls forever and always. Thank you for being our knight and shining armor. 💕
Maternity leave officially ended for me a few weeks ago and goodness has it been harder than I thought it would be to not spend every minute with my sweet girl. It was extremely important to me to exclusively breastfeed because there is something so special about the bond Ellie and I have during her feedings. I love how time slows down as I gaze down at her and watch as this beautiful girl grows before my very eyes. I’ve tried to soak in every moment and look at every hair on her sweet little head. But now that I’m working 3 days a week, I feel so much mom guilt. No longer am I the only one feeding her. No longer am I right there to experience her “first” of many milestones. On the other hand I’m so grateful for a business that helps provide for our family while I work from home part time. I’m so grateful I have the opportunity during my work day to step away from my desk and see my baby girl even if it’s for a few minutes. BUT the mom guilt I’m feeling is SOOO real! When I’m being a mama I feel guilt for not working + helping financially for our family.... When I’m working I feel guilt for not being with my baby.... Working mamas I need your advice, how do you get through this mom guilt feeling during the transition from maternity leave to a working mama?
Just a couple of girls enjoying the sun 😎 Our first of many pool days with my mini me. ☀️
How is my sweet baby girl already 2 months old?! She is the perfect mix of spunk + sass. She’s got her mama’s expressive frown and her daddy’s contagious smile. She loves to kick her feet during tummy time and snuggles like a champ. Bows aren’t really her thing, but we’re trying (mostly for grandma 🥰). Her quick change of facial expressions + big girl farts keep us laughing on the daily. Those cheeks. Those lips. That smile. Oh Ellie Jo we are so in love with you. I’m so lucky to be your mama. 💕
FINALLY our first garden! I’ve wanted a garden for YEARS! Yet for some reason it just never happened because simply starting something I knew little about (building a raised bed + growing vegetables) felt so daunting. So this year we FINALLY did it by using what we already had. An old shrub used to live in this bed behind the swing so we pulled that baby out and made my dream come true. The thing is sometimes you just have to take baby steps. No we didn’t build our own raised bed + I didnt get to plant all the veggies + fruit I wanted but we started. The point is, if there is that thing you’ve always wanted to do, just simply start. It doesn’t have to be as big or elaborate as you’ve always wanted, but you will be amazed at how much you learn by simply starting.
I took this picture a few years ago on a girls trip to Door County + to this day this photo means so much to me. Let me explain. At the time I had just started my business. I was coming off of a very long event and then drove 4 hours up north to start our girls weekend. I was exhausted. We were in the middle of our infertility journey. And mentally, I was in a bad place. At the time, this trip was the last thing I wanted to go on. Instead I wanted to go home and not see anyone for as long as possible (ironic to think that isolation was all I wanted after now being quarantined for 2 months, am I right?) Instead of isolating myself, I went on the trip and surrounded my soul with women who lift me up, a countryside whose views take your breath away, and recharged with early mornings + kayaking. One evening, we took a sunset cruise and my heart was blown wide open by this sunset. It was almost as if God was putting me in that moment to wake me up + remind me everything was gonna be okay. So often I take for granted the power of community. I take for granted the time we get with family + friends. I take for granted how spending time outdoors can refuel my soul. I take for granted simply living in this country. I take for granted the many lives lost who fought to keep us safe. I take for granted how absolutely beautiful life is when we slow down enough to see. This picture reminds me of the many blessings even in the heart ache. Of the moment I realized everything was going to be okay. ☀️ Times are hard right now. And I know we are all going through our own struggles in the midst of this chaos. But today I pray you can see the beauty in this day. ❤️💙 Thank you to all the men + women who have fought to keep us safe. My heart aches for those who have fallen. And I never want to forget or take for granted their courage + bravery. 🇺🇸 Happy Memorial Day 🇺🇸
Feeling a heart full of so much peace and gratitude on this 🌺 Mother’s Day. 🌺Sweet Ellie Jo has given me a WHOLE new appreciation for my own beautiful Mommasita. The work of being a mother is the most selfless, hard + loving work I’ve ever known. And I’m grateful beyond words for a mother/best friend like mine who shows me day in and day out how absolutely amazing it is to be a mama. This day hasn’t always been easy + and I know there are so many hurting and aching today. For those who have lost a mother, are waiting for a babe of their own, have experienced a loss, or are pushing through the postpartum phase of figuring this whole “motherhood” thing out, know your are so loved. And you are doing amazing! 💐
Ellie Jo my sweet baby girl, how are you already one month old?! Thank you sweet girl for choosing me as your mama. It is such a joy to watch you grow each and every day. There are so many things I never want to forget about our first month together, but these are what stick out the most: 👨🏻the look on your daddy’s face when he saw you for the first time 💕the way you kissed me the first time I held you 🥱the way you slowly stretch after each and every nap [swipe to the right for the best video ever!] ❣️all the noises you make + the one noise in particular that sounds just like an elephant—“Ellie the Elephant” 👣that once upon a time you were the size of a teddy bear [even if your feet and legs make up the majority of your length—never forget, *you got it from your mama yeah yeah your mama*] 😂the way you make daddy laugh [+ cry] when you fart on him ✨ALLLL of your facial expressions 👶🏻that piece of “Alfalfa” hair that sticks up in the back just like your daddy 💤 when you dream + smile in your sleep 💗how much you love to snuggle + the way you wiggle yourself to the middle of my chest after a good burping 🐾 how much Lambeau loves you, is the first one there when you cry + how he waits outside your door and whines while you nap [you two are the best of friends] There are so many “little” things I don’t want to ever forget, but baby girl I’m so excited to continue to watch you grow into your own [even if that spunk turns into sass!] We love you out sweet Ellie Jo 💕
I’m just going to leave these right here for when I need the reminder that my baby girl was the size of a teddy bear! 💕 And those feet [poor girl] and alfalfa hairrrr! My heart is exploding.