How is my sweet baby girl already 2 months old?! She is the perfect mix of spunk + sass. She’s got her mama’s expressive frown and her daddy’s contagious smile. She loves to kick her feet during tummy time and snuggles like a champ. Bows aren’t really her thing, but we’re trying (mostly for grandma 🥰). Her quick change of facial expressions + big girl farts keep us laughing on the daily. Those cheeks. Those lips. That smile. Oh Ellie Jo we are so in love with you. I’m so lucky to be your mama. 💕
FINALLY our first garden! I’ve wanted a garden for YEARS! Yet for some reason it just never happened because simply starting something I knew little about (building a raised bed + growing vegetables) felt so daunting. So this year we FINALLY did it by using what we already had. An old shrub used to live in this bed behind the swing so we pulled that baby out and made my dream come true. The thing is sometimes you just have to take baby steps. No we didn’t build our own raised bed + I didnt get to plant all the veggies + fruit I wanted but we started. The point is, if there is that thing you’ve always wanted to do, just simply start. It doesn’t have to be as big or elaborate as you’ve always wanted, but you will be amazed at how much you learn by simply starting.
I took this picture a few years ago on a girls trip to Door County + to this day this photo means so much to me. Let me explain. At the time I had just started my business. I was coming off of a very long event and then drove 4 hours up north to start our girls weekend. I was exhausted. We were in the middle of our infertility journey. And mentally, I was in a bad place. At the time, this trip was the last thing I wanted to go on. Instead I wanted to go home and not see anyone for as long as possible (ironic to think that isolation was all I wanted after now being quarantined for 2 months, am I right?) Instead of isolating myself, I went on the trip and surrounded my soul with women who lift me up, a countryside whose views take your breath away, and recharged with early mornings + kayaking. One evening, we took a sunset cruise and my heart was blown wide open by this sunset. It was almost as if God was putting me in that moment to wake me up + remind me everything was gonna be okay. So often I take for granted the power of community. I take for granted the time we get with family + friends. I take for granted how spending time outdoors can refuel my soul. I take for granted simply living in this country. I take for granted the many lives lost who fought to keep us safe. I take for granted how absolutely beautiful life is when we slow down enough to see. This picture reminds me of the many blessings even in the heart ache. Of the moment I realized everything was going to be okay. ☀️ Times are hard right now. And I know we are all going through our own struggles in the midst of this chaos. But today I pray you can see the beauty in this day. ❤️💙 Thank you to all the men + women who have fought to keep us safe. My heart aches for those who have fallen. And I never want to forget or take for granted their courage + bravery. 🇺🇸 Happy Memorial Day 🇺🇸
Feeling a heart full of so much peace and gratitude on this 🌺 Mother’s Day. 🌺Sweet Ellie Jo has given me a WHOLE new appreciation for my own beautiful Mommasita. The work of being a mother is the most selfless, hard + loving work I’ve ever known. And I’m grateful beyond words for a mother/best friend like mine who shows me day in and day out how absolutely amazing it is to be a mama. This day hasn’t always been easy + and I know there are so many hurting and aching today. For those who have lost a mother, are waiting for a babe of their own, have experienced a loss, or are pushing through the postpartum phase of figuring this whole “motherhood” thing out, know your are so loved. And you are doing amazing! 💐
Ellie Jo my sweet baby girl, how are you already one month old?! Thank you sweet girl for choosing me as your mama. It is such a joy to watch you grow each and every day. There are so many things I never want to forget about our first month together, but these are what stick out the most: 👨🏻the look on your daddy’s face when he saw you for the first time 💕the way you kissed me the first time I held you 🥱the way you slowly stretch after each and every nap [swipe to the right for the best video ever!] ❣️all the noises you make + the one noise in particular that sounds just like an elephant—“Ellie the Elephant” 👣that once upon a time you were the size of a teddy bear [even if your feet and legs make up the majority of your length—never forget, *you got it from your mama yeah yeah your mama*] 😂the way you make daddy laugh [+ cry] when you fart on him ✨ALLLL of your facial expressions 👶🏻that piece of “Alfalfa” hair that sticks up in the back just like your daddy 💤 when you dream + smile in your sleep 💗how much you love to snuggle + the way you wiggle yourself to the middle of my chest after a good burping 🐾 how much Lambeau loves you, is the first one there when you cry + how he waits outside your door and whines while you nap [you two are the best of friends] There are so many “little” things I don’t want to ever forget, but baby girl I’m so excited to continue to watch you grow into your own [even if that spunk turns into sass!] We love you out sweet Ellie Jo 💕
I’m just going to leave these right here for when I need the reminder that my baby girl was the size of a teddy bear! 💕 And those feet [poor girl] and alfalfa hairrrr! My heart is exploding.
This is a face of a girl living out a dream. The dream of becoming a mama. But let me tell you, this dream has been a good mix of incredible beyond-my-wildest-dreams days and exhausting can-I-even-do-this days. The other day, my mommasita asked me if being a mama is what I had imagined during our 2.5 years of waiting...and honestly her question made me cry. I can blame it on the hormones or the fact that motherhood is NOTHING like I had imagined. Motherhood is the hardest most rewarding and selfless job I’ve ever done. I have an entirely new appreciation for my own mother, my grandma, my husband, my body [I mean what it went through to bring our little girl into the world is beyond incredible and don’t even get me started on postpartum recovery]. We have days where I never make it out of my robe and exhaustion is at an all time high, and days where I break out the jeans for the first time in 6 months [and TOTALLY feel like a brand new woman!!] My point is this. We all have dreams, right? But we don’t always give ourselves the space to sit and soak up the reality that was once a dream. Is motherhood always rainbow and sunshine? HECK NO. But this moment right here is exactly what I was created to become. This little girl’s mama. [Jeans or no jeans] And I’m doing everything I can to soak in the good + hard days. To all you mamas out there riding this roller coaster. I SEE YOU. I see your good days + hard days. But mostly, I see how perfectly you were created to be your little ones mama. To all those still patiently waiting [whether for a baby of your own, the love of your life, a friend to lean on, or that wild dream to come true]. I SEE YOU. I see you waiting and I pray you find peace in the waiting. Keep chasing those dreams ✨
And just like that our sweet Ellie Jo is already 3 weeks old 💕
“Some bunny loves me!” - Ellie Jo Wild For all of us, Easter looked a lot different than we could have ever imagined. It was our first holiday together as a family of 3 (the first of many firsts to come) and although we had to Skype in the grandmas and grandpas it was a day that brought a lot of reflection and gratitude. If I’m being honest, it was also an extremely hard day as miss Ellie is cluster feeding and couldn’t get enough of mama and her special powers (aka the boob), but there was also so much peace with being at home, YouTubing our favorite Pastor’s Easter Sermon and devouring Easter Dinner that our neighbors dropped off on our front porch. Life looks really different right now. Ellie’s “firsts” look SOOOO different than I could have ever imagined. Yet amidst all the chaos there is so much to be grateful for. This Easter weekend I’m SO grateful for: 🙌🏽 A God who loves us beyond words. ✨Jesus who rose from the grave (just as He said He would!) ❤️ A love so strong He came back for us all. 💘 @wildtj19 for EVERY ounce of his being. 🐰👶🏻This little bunny and the miracle she represents in our life. 🌺 The kindness of neighbors who go out of their way to make us feel supported and loved (and fed with the most amazing Easter dinner and a special gift for Ellie Jo on our front porch!) 📱Technology that allows our families to watch Ellie grow even if they’ve never gotten to snuggle her yet. 🐶My parents for loving on Lambeau as we get adjusted to our new normal. 💕And so much more. In times like these, I fully believe gratitude changes everything. Thank you Jesus for showing the greatest kind of love. What are a few things you are grateful for during this crazy time?
Meet our sweet Ellie Jo Wild 💕 What a WILD few days this week has been. Although our birth story was nothing like we imagined it would be @wildtj19 and I are so full of joy and love as we welcomed sweet Ellie Jo Wild into the world on 3/31/2020. What a blessing this 6lb 6oz beauty and all her facial expressions have become in our life these past few days. Sweet baby girl, we are already so in love with you! You are everything and more I’ve prayed for all these years. And finally holding you in my arms makes the wait worth it 100x over. Thank you for making me a mama sweet girl. #obsessedwithyou