Happy birthday to the woman I was, the woman I am, and the woman I am becoming. I can’t tell put into words how much my life has changed this year. It’s been absolutely incredible to go on this deep healing process and to see such a physical transformation within my being. This picture on the left was just three years ago. I am amazed at what the body can do, what our minds can do and what our spirits are capable of transforming in front of our eyes. This next year is going to be absolutely magical... and I cannot wait to see what opens up for us all together on this wild ride of life. I’m having a birthday party at my house .. the first birthday party I’ve had since I was 12. It feels really exciting and so full of love and I hope to share some of it with you on the stories today. I just want to say I love you all so so much and I’m so thankful to have shared this journey with you. Cheers to so many more abundant years of growth, prosperity and love! Xox Lauren Eliz Love 
About last night’s energy clearing. If you saw my post from yesterday, you know I was reallllyyy moving through it. And I thought about how to put this all into words for you to help you and support you on your path...and I think the best way to do that is just share what’s going on for me in a vulnerable real raw way. This is a REAL vulnerable share ya’ll. Bear with me. So you know that here in sedona I’ve been navigating healing Lyme disease for the last six months... and that recently I realized how the root of my illness was a rape trauma that has been within my energetic field since 2009. I’ve been doing deep work around this, which im sure you read about in my posts or listened to me share on in my ig videos around my work here But there’s a deep layer of healing I’m stepping into that feels really scary: healing my relationship with sex. 13 years later my Trauma affects me in the bedroom. I’m not completely expressed, I feel closed off, won’t let myself be fully touched, I get anxiety about being intimate, and I don’t let my husband fully be with me in all of my essence. It’s a really really hard thing to navigate. Last night I started putting the pieces together around this, realizing for the first time how my trauma has affected me in this way... how for the longest time I’ve been telling my husband he needs to do more, step up and take more action to be more intimate with me ...when really the truth is I’m not allowing that layer of intimacy into my own self expression. I have been avoiding doing this work for a really long time. When I was on antidepressants, it was fine. When I was drinking it was fine. But totally sober and cleared of any influence, it’s like I’m back to square one learning these things for the first time. Last night I grieved for the girl who had spent all these years disconnected from her healing ... the girl who hid from doing this work because she was so scared. And now here I am owning this with all of you. My 32nd birthday is on Friday, and it feels like this is the best time to heal this story I’ve been carrying.. to reclaim my feminine essence and give myself permission to be fully me in a new way. 
I’m healing a deep part of myself right now and I want to share it with all of you. So much of “healing marketing” on social media is about branding the joy and the bliss of the “after” life. You know, the “look where I am, you can be here too” marketing. It’s great to inspire, but it’s often misleading. Because here’s the truth.. even when someone is in the “after” from your perspective, they aren’t. They are deep in a process that you’re just only seeing one side to. This is the other side. For me, tonight, the other side is me on the floor, crying, shaking and feeling cold because you just had a healing tough hard conversation with your partner, that made you realize soooo many important things. The other side of healing journey work is shamanic. It’s a spiritual shift in our reality that causes us to weep, cry, shake and release emotion. The other side of the healing journey is tough and brings tears. But Know that The crying is a release. It’s not an emotion that is STUCK .. it’s an emotion coming out. And I’m releasing a LOT tonight. I’m going to write up a blog post for all of you about it that will go out tomorrow (hopefully.) But in the mean time, this is your reminder... when you look at people on social media marketing their amazing spiritual lives, that in the middle of all that glory, share and celebration there is deep heavy hard stuff they may be navigating too... and I hope that gives you permission to remind yourself that when you are still going through hard stuff, it doesn’t mean you haven’t “arrived” or that you’re not “accomplished” or “worthy of feeling achieved” in your outcome of an amazing life .... but that your a human evolving, changing, and learning in an ever ending journey of growth and expansion. So here’s to the expansion. Cheers 🥂 ♥️ Xoxo With love, Lauren 
Read that twice. Everything you see is a reflection of you. The grumpy man at the grocery store who’s rude because he’s having a bad day. The sexual partner who’s disrespectful or doesn’t treat you right. The friend that says something hurtful towards you or has a bad habit you don’t like. The woman who triggers you because she’s overly sexual and open with her body. The family member who isn’t working on herself. The family member who complains or gets stuck in their story. The hurtful thing someone did that you read about on the internet. The state of the world and the government. The house you live in. The car you drive. The clothes you wear. The comments you get on your Instagram. All of it is a reflection of you. It’s here to teach you something. To show you a part of yourself. To give you a chance to repair old wounds. To embrace new levels of yourself that you may not see. To forgive parts of yourself you may not have forgiven. To celebrate the life you have now. To Cherish the progress you’ve made. All of it is here to mirror to you and teach you. Your life is a ceremony. Are you learning the lessons yet? Tonight on our members only moon call we are going to release and reprogram to manifest more of what we want to see in our physical reality. I hope you join us! Link to the membership is in my bio. 
We all have the ability to transform. To start out as a tiny little bird and to eventually grow into the fierce eagle that soars the skies and reigns in power. I was once this little bird. Lost and scared, overwhelmed and unsure of how to fly. I think we all were. Here’s what I’ve realized on my six month journey of transformation here in Sedona. 1. Having a big goal is really important, but small milestone steps are of top priority. Start with the thing in front of you that calls you and makes you curious... it will lead you to the next step. 2. We most abandon our old beliefs before we claim the new reality we desire. Think about this tiny bird who has never flown before ... his beliefs Up until this point have been “I can’t fly .. based on evidence of his past reality .... but where he is going, he needs to believe something different, and needs to let go of the old beliefs first in order to do that. 3. The life we want cannot be created through the mind alone. It must be created with the heart. When we live in our heart space, when we are centered in our soul, the reality we desire manifests. Our journey of transformation is about sinking more deeply into the heart. 4. Things can happen instantly, or they can take time. We are not less than it better than if our goals take three years to manifest or three days ... what matters is we get there and we enjoy the journey of getting there. 5. Finally- you are worthy of the time and the love and intention to change. You are worthy of the care and the work involved to get there. If you need help, this Wednesday inside my membership community I’m running a moon call for all of our sisters to pray, meditate, set intention, and heal together. @essenceofthemother facilitates these monthly moon calls and she’s amazing. The link is obviously in my bio, and regardless of what you choose, I hope you continue to honor your growth, love yourself in the process, and be a great believer in your transformation. ♥️ 
Sometimes in life we are so focused on getting ahead to some goal, outcome, or level of life. We look at our currently reality and we see what needs to change, shift or improve. And we want to evolve. But what we forget is that where we are right now is EXACTLY where we are supposed to be. You are here intentionally. You are in this moment right now on purpose. Wherever you are, God put you in that moment for a reason. Trust the lessons unfolding in front of you here.. they will guide you to your next step. ❤️ 
You’re reality is not shaped by circumstances. It’s shaped by the meaning you choose to give your experiences, and the actions you take. You can have your heart broken and choose to give that experience meaning that you will never love again ... or you can choose to give that experience the meaning that you now are one step closer to knowing what you want. Yay. ! Another example: if you grew up with a not so stellar childhood, you may give those experiences negative meaning... or you can choose to see the gifts of the environment you grew up in. This is what shapes our reality; the choice to give things an empowering meaning. What has happened in your life and how can you give it more of an empowering meaning? #personaldevelopment #selflove