These memories feel like both a yesterday happenstance and many lifetimes ago. It’s Day 101 of sheltering in place here in San Francisco, but pieces of my mind still wander through the hydrangea gardens over at @ashfordestate. Forever in love with my princess bride and her handsome groom. Photographed on my @sony a7iii in the middle of a summer storm that swept in and then brought the rainbow 🌈 Planning + design by @cristinacalvertsignature, floral design by @sweetrootvillage, production by @bd3design, lighting by @thisisitentertainment, rentals by @dcreventrentals, hair + makeup by @statussalonagency, dress from @jaimebridal.
Photographing these two on a quiet weekend morning in San Francisco definitely ranks up there as one of my highlights of the month. The occasional, socially-distanced portrait session (sunrise is great for avoiding crowds!) has done wonders for my sense of purpose. What’s a photographer who doesn’t photograph? Sounds like the intro to a bad dad joke, when it’s actually the leading line into my semidaily existential crisis. I’m also currently sitting in my car typing this, as it’s been fifteen minutes since I moved the car for street cleaning and parked, and I still don’t have the energy to actually go home. Next month will mark five years since we sold most of our belongings and drove cross-country from blisteringly-humid-hot Georgia to Northern California, where I’m two jackets deep in the middle of summer. (Literally) throwing myself out of bed to move the car before 8am makes me feel like both the sleepiest and luckiest person alive. I would not trade these past few years for anything, and even as all the time spent zoning out in my car starts to stack up, I’m accompanied every morning by the birds chirping, the lavender blooming, the sounds of the city slowly coming alive, and these times are truthfully some of the happiest of my life. Photographed on @fujifilm_profilm with my #Contax645 and processed by @indiefilmlab.
Reliving all my favorite moments from Bharvi and Mithil’s wedding weekend as I dive into designing their physical heirloom album ♥️ I’m personally also in a photo printing mood, and recently pulled out some frames I’ve been meaning to hang since the beginning of time. These uncertain times remind me daily that what we have cannot easily be taken for granted. Trying to surround myself with regular reminders to keep fighting for the good in my world. Planning + coordination by @crimsonbleuevents, hair by @vigilantecosmetics, makeup by @ericabogartbeauty, bridal mendhi by @foreverbeautybymanisha, videography by @kevinhurshfilms, photographed on-location at @hilton.marietta with @fujifilm_profilm on my #Contax645 and processed by @photovisionprints.
The beginning of this pandemic coincided with the death of my personal creativity. As the world erupted around us, I found it harder and harder to stay online and share my voice. On days when I felt completely crazy – when I thought about walking out of my home, when I thought about heading out over the hills and continuing on and on as though this virus was something I could just walk past and leave behind – those wishful imaginings never included a camera in my hands. I walked unburdened, when only a few months ago, I would throw every other object out of my bag to make space for a camera. I think I have felt too helpless in the face of this ongoing crisis to tell stories in the way I’ve previously felt comfortable doing so. It also didn’t feel right to keep sharing moments on this grid that weren’t currently possible for my 2020 couples. I have spent a lot of time in quarantine with my eyes closed, refusing to leave this one-woman pity party. Then, this past month, we course-corrected. Like someone firmly taking me by the shoulders and shaking me out of a daze, this modern day civil rights movement has forced me to put my inner dialogue in the backseat and listen to others speak on experiences outside of my own. I have been given the materials and resources to tell stories in new and very human ways – now it’s up to me to make good on the dedication and energy. Through learned experience, I’ve found that public accountability holds me to a lot of growth, so I wanted to take the time and share some personal vows moving forward. Personal - business - there’s not much division anymore. It all feels like a new awakening. I’m embracing it. To be very clear: Black lives matter. Photographed with @fujifilm_profilm on my #Contax645 and processed by @indiefilmlab.
Just some paper goods. But also – a reminder of that ultra giving, giving, always giving nature of wedding artistry. To me, flatlays are a shared creative project that’s passed through many hands prior to arriving in mine. There’s a simple pleasure in photographing the cross section of so many different, thoughtful pieces of design. Hello, I’m reading a lot into something very basically simple again. Paper design and calligraphy by @lairseypaperco, ring by @susiesaltzman, ring box by @essellesf, photographed with my @sony A7iii and edited with @thearchetypeprocess.
Being the personality type that can never remember what personality type I am, I severely underestimated what social distancing for 66 days in a row would feel like. I am ready to doublepierce my own ear (serious consideration) – slow cook the most intensive, laborious, caloric-dense risotto possible and eat my feelings – bravely attempt cut-across bangs (no, no, we must sensibly back away from that particular ledge) – finally give in and bake banana bread with the rest of manic America – etc, etc, etc. Running on crazy. Gotta write down these ridiculous moments so I can recall them later and laugh. From Bri + Adrianna’s wedding at San Francisco’s city hall. Photographed on @fujifilm_profilm with my #contax645 and processed by @photovisionprints.
I love you for the same reason seasons come and go, time seems to quicken and slow, and that’s for no reason at all. I love you because that’s who I am and that’s who I’ll always be. From Anica and Chris’ engagement session at Sutro Baths in San Francisco. Photographed on my @sony A7iii and edited with @thearchetypeprocess.
Leah and Michael. Wedding day double exposure on @kodak Portra 400, photographed with my #Contax645 while second shooting for my dear friend @megmessina and processed by @richardphotolab. Also I left my @holdfastgear harness at this venue and found it there two months later 🤦🏻♀️ hoping everything else I’ve lost in my own home since our quarantine began shows up shortly too..