I wanted to do a maternity shoot but timing said no. Ha. So I guess this will qualify as one in my hospital room using the powers of a camera, remote, tripod, and a little editing on my phone. I just needed something to document this pregnancy. Not the fancy session I had in mind but it will at least tell the story. Hey. It’s something. Here’s to you little girl. I can’t wait to meet you tomorrow. . . . . #preeclampsia #maternity #preeclampsiasurvivor
I’m grateful for my husband who stayed at this hospital almost every day with me so that I could do this. I’m grateful for my sister who stayed with my kids so they could have someone watch over them. I’m grateful for my mother who helped as much as possible so I didn’t stress, was comfortable, and gave me a place to rant or just talk whenever I was lonely. I’m grateful for all the support of my friends who wished me well, sent me things to keep me busy, and kept me in their thoughts. There’s so much I’m grateful for... I am so blessed to have these amazing people in my life.
Today marks the last day of carrying my daughter in womb after two and a half weeks staying at this hospital. It was scary to go in with a small concern and after some tests have them tell me I have severe preeclampsia at 32 weeks. All I could think was “Again?” This time I was able to catch it before it stopped the heart of my daughter. Something I wish I did for my first son, Alexander, and still can’t seem to forgive myself for. But you know, I think just like with all my other children, Alex was here with me to see I wouldn’t lose his sister. This is what I tell myself when I get so low and felt guilty. When I felt lonely or unsure in this hospital. Anytime I felt myself going dark, I remembered I have him and all my loved ones with me. I’m scared for tomorrow when they bring my daughter into this world at 34 weeks. But if I stay positive and keep remembering they’re with me, I can get through this too. #preeclampsia #preeclampsiasurvivor #preeclampsiaawareness