This isn’t really something I talk about ever, but as I passed the 10 year mark of it I’ve been reflecting on it & thought I would share about my experience in hopes it will encourage you or help in some way. 10 years ago, in May 2009, I was 17 and hospitalized against my will for suicidal thoughts. The previous 18 months had been pretty rough – I was a very, very angsty & rebellious teenager (so sorry for that mom + dad) who felt things very deeply & it kind of all came to a head when my high school boyfriend broke up with me (which clearly was a messy thing). It felt like my world had come crashing down around me. It felt like there was absolutely no point to keep going anymore. Looking back, it is SO so so easy to trivialize that time in my life & wonder why the heck I was so upset. It’s easy to judge myself for being a child basically & accuse myself of being unrealistically dramatic. But time & memory are fickle things. The more time passes after something, & the more energy we put into recalling specifics, the more the sharp edges of a memory are dulled down into a nice, smooth surface. So as much as I almost can’t understand how I could’ve gone through that experience (now, as an adult, having faced many more hard & painful things), I also know that those emotions were real, even though I was a kid. The devastation was real. The utter hopelessness was real. The good news is that there were others who took action to step in & help me when I couldn’t. I went to therapy on a weekly basis for months & learned to cope with my emotions & find outlets for them. The more negative side is that those demons and self-harm inclinations I think will always be part of me. It’s just a matter of battling through resisting scratching that itch. But if this story resonates with you, hear me on this: it can be done. It doesn’t need to define you. You can come out the other side of it. If you’re struggling with anything like this, please don’t downplay your emotions, no matter how old or young you are. They are real, & deserve attention from you in some way or form. And if you need someone objective & empathetic to talk to, I am always a message away. Always.
guys, I am getting sooo lost in all the beautiful wedding things... I'm getting hit with a billion facebook ads now and the rabbit/procrastination hole of social media has gotten twice as worse. 🤣 exhibit a, I'm currently playing with colors of a pretty wedding invite instead of getting work done. pls send help.
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Alriiiigghhht back to our regularly scheduled programming haha. the last few days have been such a wild high rollercoaster ride, we're finally coming back to a normal neutral level of life after making our engagement announcement everywhere!⠀ ⠀ To everyone who reached out (and there are sooo many of you!!) to say congratulations, thank you so much!! We are so so thrilled and are so grateful to have so many people reach out to voice their support and happiness for us! 🖤⠀ ⠀ and for me, I'm so so SO stoked to have that stress over with! now I can relax haha. I was sitting on that secret with the ring in hand for a full month just waiting for the right moment! talk about jittery nerves. THANK YOU, NEXT. 🤣
Well this weekend was exciting! . . On Saturday morning I proposed to my best friend, adventure buddy, and snuggle soulmate and asked him to spend the rest of his life with me. Yup, you read that right! I was tired of waiting for him to ask me, so I finally decided to take matters into my own hands. At first I immediately wrote the idea of asking him off — after all, after dreaming about it for my entire life (as girls do) I *really* wanted to be the one surprised and proposed to. But then I thought about it some more. And realized, does it reeeallyy matter who asks? It’s not like the other person is going to be absolutely shocked from not seeing it coming. Our love is equal. We’ve known for almost the entire time we’ve been dating (18 months) that we were going to be it for each other. It doesn’t make it less meaningful not being on the receiving end. So then why NOT ask him myself? 🖤 side note // there are 300,000 photos tagged #howheasked but only 3,000 tagged #howsheasked. I’m stoked to be part of changing the narrative around this tradition. Anyway, please enjoy some candid photos we took in the backyard tonight to go with this announcement. You’ll especially enjoy the second to last one (he does this almost every time I take a photo of us 🤣). Friends, this is who’s got my back for the rest of my days. I can’t wait. It’s gonna be so amazing. 🤩🎉💍
Hey friends! I know I’ve been pretty quiet on here for a while... I took a much needed break from my work for a few weeks to detox from the hustle basically, and am finally (slowly) starting to get back into things. You know those videos of people who get their cars stuck in mud and trying to drive out of it only gets their axels stuck deeper and deeper? That was basically how I felt, just spinning my wheels and spinning and spinning, not really getting anywhere.. . I keep relearning the lesson over and over that busy is not a badge of honor. The last few weeks I’ve been resting super hard and it really nailed that point home. It’s so important to rest as hard as you work, ESPECIALLY when that work is something you’re wildly passionate about and the thing you do for fun even without being paid. Like, because I’m so stoked on my work (digital marketing, content creation, photography obvs, website design, etc etc) I spend basically ALL of my free time doing those things, when I should be forcing myself to turn it “off” and focus on other things that are NOT work related and do them for no reason other than they’re purely fun things. Anyone feel me?! . ANYWAY. what I really wanted to tell you about tonight is a blog post I just published. Wanna know something super random about me?? My boyfriend George and I have been living in a 300 square foot space together for almost a full year. Isn’t that wild?! IT TINY. hahah. I wrote about how I downsized from 2,000 square feet to this and if you’re curious how I did it, the link to it is in my bio! ALSO if you’re wondering how the heck we haven’t killed each other yet living this close together for so long, I gotchu: I’m working on writing a follow up post about how we’ve created the relationship that thrives in this tiny space! ☺️ . Now tell me: if you were us, would you go straight hunger games on each other, every man for himself? Or be totally stoked on spending that much time together?