I believe in the kind of love that doesn't demand me to prove my worth and sit in anxiety. I crave a natural connection, where my soul is able to recognize a feeling of home in another. Something free-flowing, something simple. Something that allows me to be me without question. - Joey Palermo - 💜 These words gives me all the feels. I have to believe that someday, somewhere, someone will love all of me, and it will be so right they will give me no reason to be anxious. Until then, I’ll just be here, waiting under the Jacaranda tree. 💜 Side note: how full and defined do my cheeks look!! No makeup!! Mucho love to @absolutecosmeticmedicine
Today was not a good one. It was a harsh reminder that while I’ve come a long way on my mindset journey, there is still far to go. When things are going well I sometimes think that I am maybe ‘cured’ of my mental health issues. It’s difficult to accept that it is a part of me that will likely always be there. Something happens to me when I’m triggered (usually by something relating to abandonment). My anxiety levels shoot through the roof and my alter ego comes out swinging. I get very defensive and angry, I say hurtful and destructive things, I feel panicked and fearful, my thoughts become obsessive and repetitive keeping me in a vicious cycle of sadness and anger, sadness and anger. Once I’m in it, once alter ego Tiff takes over, it becomes very difficult to get a grip and think rationally or positively about anything let alone the thing that set me off. There have been times in the past where I have been stuck in this mindset for weeks, unable to find relief. What will be interesting to see now is how quickly I can bounce back. This is the moment of truth. There are always going to be setbacks, there are always going to be triggers, I am still going to feel things deeply (and I wouldn’t have it any other way), no amount of mindset work short of a lobotomy could change all that. But it’s how quickly I can come back from the edge that will be a true testament of how far I’ve come. That a speed bump does not turn into a pot hole. I’d love to hear if this experience is similar for anyone else when they hit a speed bump and how you bounce back. Photo taken with my tripod @sumberkimahill edit by me.
“There is just something magical about Indonesia” 🇮🇩 In my panel discussion yesterday at the Garuda International Travel Fair I think I said this sentence about 10 times 🤦🏼♀️😅 but it’s so true! I love Bali but there is so much more of #wonderfulindonesia to see than that! This picture was taken at Padar Island which I visited on my trip with @lalunia.liveaboard in Komodo National Park. We woke up at 3am to ferry to the Island, hike up to this view point and watch night turn into day. You can sail into Komodo from Labuan Bajo which you can fly to from Perth for just $534 return with @garuda.indonesia 🐉 Swipe to see other deals you can get this weekend at the travel fair located next to JB-HI @westfieldcarousel #gaftperth2018 #gaft #visitindonesia Picture @eyesofanomad
I am super bloody excited to be speaking at the Garuda Indonesia Trade Fair tomorrow about my experiences living in Bali and travelling around Indo! 🌴 The trade fair is at Senso Cafe at Westfields Carousel from tomorrow until Sunday 9am - 5pm. I will be speaking from 1130am until 1pm tomoz so come on down if you want to pick my brains all things Bali! You can also snatch up some great deals from Garuda on flights, tours and accommodation! #gatf #gatfperth2018 #gatf2018 #wonderfulindonesia Pic @eyesofanomad edit by me.
We’re all a bit fucked up, just some people are better at hiding it... I, however, would rather own my fucked-up-ness, put it all out there, accept it and work on it. I am so unbelievably far from having my shit together. I can be unreasonable, demanding, hypocritical, insecure, unreliable, forgetful, selfish, moody, the list goes on. I’m not pretending to be a perfect person living a perfect life, and neither should you, the journey is far more interesting. So here’s to being all kinds of fucked! 🍻
Hello summer! ☀️
It was absolutely wonderful catching up with this sweetheart today at the @wacountrycups Ladies Luncheon 💖 There aren’t too many eggs as good as @nikki_gogan (especially coming out of reality tv shows!) Today I was reminded of a story about Nikki that I’ve never shared. It was the first day in the Bachelor ‘mansion’ after 2 gruelling nights of 4am finishes. Already sleep deprived, we had a full day of photo shoots and interviews for various media outlets ahead and I quickly felt overwhelmed. Girls were comparing their designer brand clothing, perfectly applying their makeup, striking poses for the camera and feelings of insecurity and inadequacy quickly took over. I didn’t have any designer clothing, barely wore makeup, didn’t know how to style my hair, and didn’t know how to pose for photo’s (especially when the other girls were watching on). To say I felt intimidated would be an understatement. I crawled into bed and cried myself to sleep. A couple of hours later, one of the producers convinced me to come and do the group photo and when I got out of bed there was a plate of food, a bottle of water and a banana with a smiley face drawn on next to my bed. I later found out that it had been Nikki who had snuck in and left that for me because I had missed lunch. That’s Nikki for you, selfless and unassuming, always trying to lift up those around her. I am truly blessed to have crossed paths with her beautiful soul, she’s a one in a million ✨
Who do you follow and why? 🤷🏼♀️ Last night I went through all the people I was following and asked myself that question for each and every account. I was following over 1000 and now it’s less than 500. My home page was filled with posts from people I didn’t know and things that didn’t inspire me. I’d miss posts by my friends or daily reminders from my favourite writers or photographers. I unfollowed all accounts that didn’t Inspire, entertain or educate me. I also unfollowed accounts of people I didn’t know or had never interacted with. And truth be told I doubt any of them will notice! It’s amazing the accounts we accumulate on here; accounts that become inactive, accounts of brands you once bought from, accounts of strangers you met one time, accounts of people you thought were hot who are now married 🤔 I think it’s important to cleanse from time to time as we mature and our interests evolve both online and in the real world. I once followed a lot of beauty and fashion accounts and now I’d rather follow mindset, photography and poetry. I once followed strangers in exchange for them following me. Now I don’t care. That’s not the point of this platform. Perhaps this will result in a drop in my following but I’d rather have people who follow me because they are actually engaged and inspired rather than on the basis of follow for follow #fake The cleanse feels uplifting and I was ruthless about it but if I have unfollowed you and you are upset, please DM me as there may have been some I unfollowed by mistake in the process. This is another step forward in my journey of conscious and authentic living. X
The ultimate wedgie @kotomi_swim 😂 I am LOVING this kind of swimwear atm! A modern take on a retro style, creating curves in all the right places. 💖 I don’t have hips, but I do have a booty (thanks to @lafitstudio and @f45_training_booragoon 💪🏼) and this style gives me the illusion of hips while enhancing ma backside! 🍑 I’m not saying this will be flattering on every body type, just as some styles aren’t flattering on me. I’m not big on following trends, I always dress in what I feel comfortable in and what makes me feel good 💁🏼♀️ This makes me feel sexy, wedgie and all!
Over the weekend I went camping with some friends in #dongara @laurenmason91 drove us up on Saturday morning. We left a standard hour and a half later than we intended (oops)🤦🏼♀️ 4 hours later and we arrived to meet our other friends at our #campsite ready with bbq Crayfish that they’d caught that morning. We all headed down to the beach, the boys heading out to kite surf while the girls chilled at the back of the 4wds. A lazy few hours passed, the warm sun meeting the cold wind. Once the boys had sufficiently exhausted their muscles we headed back to camp. I went to set up my #swag, soon realising I’d left the poles for it at home 😓 Tying the head end to a tree to lift it off my face was the best we could do. #swaglife #fail All that ‘hard’ work called for some red wine. We drank out of plastic cups (as you do when camping), ate dip and cheese while we played some chilled tunes and watched the sun set. 🍷 There’s something so grounding about camping. I actually prefer to go out bush or on the beach with no electricity, no reception and a good ol’ campfire. 🔥 I think I love the simplicity, the conversations, the smells and sounds of nature. I also love sleeping in the swag. I hate tents, they make me feel claustrophobic and they turn into a sweat box when the sun hits them. But a swag has been a #gamechanger ! I actually keep the swag in my car boot, it comforts me to know I have a bed to sleep in no matter where I am. There’s no real point to this post other than to share my love of getting away to #nature even just for a night. If you’ve read this far, I’d love to know your thoughts on #camping 😊xox P.s. for those who have DM’d me, the onsie is from @onepiece - I bought it 8 years ago, best buy ever!