You know that episode in Friends where Phoebe can’t get the smoke detector to stop beeping? Yeah that was mine and Anthony’s night last night. About 2am all of a sudden it starts beeping and Camden got startled so he’s pacing the room. Anth gets up and takes the battery out of one and it KEEPS beeping. I couldn’t help but laugh. So needless to say our smoke detectors are dangling from the ceiling battery-less.
Trauma. You hear the word and your heart beats a little faster. Your mind races to escape thoughts. Or you push it all aside as if it isn’t there. Trauma. It seems to be the topic of this season for me. We’ve discussed childhood trauma in class more recently and it has been bringing up feelings and thoughts I didn’t remember I had. It has opened my mind to areas I have shoved so far into the dark that it merely seems like a dream. Lately, trauma has been finding its way into my life through many ways. Not always my own, but either way always leads me down my own path of trauma. When I first heard that I was reacting to trauma from my past, from a therapist I was seeing I thought she was crazy. But then it kinda made sense. It’s been a couple years now and things have slowly been opening up for me. And it hasn’t been the least bit easy. I have just started opening up to Anthony about it. Discovering these emotions with him rather than alone and it seems to be helping. And I guess I’m writing all of this to tell you, you aren’t alone. It’s okay to open up. You’ll be okay.
how wonderfully you’ve grown since last year.
find joy in the little things and hope in the unexpected places.
you make my soul shine ✨
live so that when your children think of love, truth and integrity, they think of you.
you make today better.
celebrate e v e r y day.