• One of my favorite things since first picking up a camera is finding the light. Anyone who’s spent any time learning photography knows how important light is. It’s taught me to seek out light in unusual ways or notice light in places I never have before. I’ve loved the idea of having a specific word to focus on each year but was struggling to find a word that felt right this year. I was praying over it last night, asking God to show me where he wanted to focus this year. I know it’s going to be an exciting but challenging year with a new baby coming! And I’d be lying if I said there wasn’t fear in my heart about entering the postpartum period again with my history of PPA. But then it hit me when I woke this morning...Light. His Light. That’s where my focus needs to be this year! Searching for His Light in the chaotic seasons of life. Being His Light in the world even when I have my own things going on. I actually took this photo several days ago because the light streaming through the window was too beautiful to pass up. I never did anything with the photo at the time but now I know it was meant to be a reminder this year. So here’s to finding and being the light in the world in 2020 💛
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    One of my favorite things since first picking up a camera is finding the light. Anyone who’s spent any time learning photography knows how important light is. It’s taught me to seek out light in unusual ways or notice light in places I never have before. I’ve loved the idea of having a specific word to focus on each year but was struggling to find a word that felt right this year. I was praying over it last night, asking God to show me where he wanted to focus this year. I know it’s going to be an exciting but challenging year with a new baby coming! And I’d be lying if I said there wasn’t fear in my heart about entering the postpartum period again with my history of PPA. But then it hit me when I woke this morning...Light. His Light. That’s where my focus needs to be this year! Searching for His Light in the chaotic seasons of life. Being His Light in the world even when I have my own things going on. I actually took this photo several days ago because the light streaming through the window was too beautiful to pass up. I never did anything with the photo at the time but now I know it was meant to be a reminder this year. So here’s to finding and being the light in the world in 2020 💛
  • January means it’s time to start flipping the guest room into the nursery 😍 Since we’re not finding out what baby is before the birth, this is the first time I’ve done a very gender neutral nursery. (Which means I’m having fun imagining we might actually get to use some bows in the future 😉) I wanted it to be really light and airy so our previous crib was too heavy for the space. I’ve been searching for a pretty crib like this for weeks and finally snagged a barely used one on marketplace last night. Each step we take feels like a risk after our loss but I’m choosing to have faith that this baby will come home with us 💛
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    January means it’s time to start flipping the guest room into the nursery 😍 Since we’re not finding out what baby is before the birth, this is the first time I’ve done a very gender neutral nursery. (Which means I’m having fun imagining we might actually get to use some bows in the future 😉) I wanted it to be really light and airy so our previous crib was too heavy for the space. I’ve been searching for a pretty crib like this for weeks and finally snagged a barely used one on marketplace last night. Each step we take feels like a risk after our loss but I’m choosing to have faith that this baby will come home with us 💛
  • Trying new things in the new year! ⛸⛸
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    Trying new things in the new year! ⛸⛸
  • Halfway there my sweet chocolate chip 💛 The first 20 weeks felt like it went on forever, every day was one step closer to maybe getting to hold our sweet child. I’m praying this second 20 fly by because I’m dying to snuggle this baby in my arms. I feel like I can finally breathe again knowing baby is healthy and growing right on track! Each kick, each roll, just another confirmation that this baby is thriving. I’ve cried out to God so many times this pregnancy trying to release my worry and fear over another loss to Him. It’s a choice I have to make daily to trust in Him and His sovereign plan for my sweet babies. Knowing that even when my heart is aching and my brain cannot process the why, He is ALWAYS good. Today would have been our due date for our second angel baby. Most people don’t know that or wouldn’t remember but I can guarantee any loss mama has dates like this etched in the front of her mind. Pregnancy after loss is this coexistence of joy and grief that can sweep you off your feet at the strangest things. This baby growing inside me now will never replace the life lost to us. But I know some day I will get to hold ALL my babies in my arms when we’re together in Heaven and what a glorious day that will be! Praise God!! (I opened the mail to the sweetest package from my bonus Grandma @grandmaconnie13 with this T-shirt inside and it came at the perfect time to shine a little light on a hard day 💛)
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    Halfway there my sweet chocolate chip 💛 The first 20 weeks felt like it went on forever, every day was one step closer to maybe getting to hold our sweet child. I’m praying this second 20 fly by because I’m dying to snuggle this baby in my arms. I feel like I can finally breathe again knowing baby is healthy and growing right on track! Each kick, each roll, just another confirmation that this baby is thriving. I’ve cried out to God so many times this pregnancy trying to release my worry and fear over another loss to Him. It’s a choice I have to make daily to trust in Him and His sovereign plan for my sweet babies. Knowing that even when my heart is aching and my brain cannot process the why, He is ALWAYS good. Today would have been our due date for our second angel baby. Most people don’t know that or wouldn’t remember but I can guarantee any loss mama has dates like this etched in the front of her mind. Pregnancy after loss is this coexistence of joy and grief that can sweep you off your feet at the strangest things. This baby growing inside me now will never replace the life lost to us. But I know some day I will get to hold ALL my babies in my arms when we’re together in Heaven and what a glorious day that will be! Praise God!! (I opened the mail to the sweetest package from my bonus Grandma @grandmaconnie13 with this T-shirt inside and it came at the perfect time to shine a little light on a hard day 💛)
  • When you forget about the Elf until 11:30pm the last day of November 🙈 needless to say Blitzen made his return during naptime so I had enough time to run to Target hahaha. I had fun (and went a little overboard) picking out fun treats from the dollar section to spoil the boys with this month. But I was most excited to find the boys these books to add to their “treat bags.” We love to make the holidays fun with our elf but we always want to keep the main focus on Jesus! The boys will love adding these new books to their little library. Now off to set an alarm so we remember to move the elf every night 🤣🤣
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    When you forget about the Elf until 11:30pm the last day of November 🙈 needless to say Blitzen made his return during naptime so I had enough time to run to Target hahaha. I had fun (and went a little overboard) picking out fun treats from the dollar section to spoil the boys with this month. But I was most excited to find the boys these books to add to their “treat bags.” We love to make the holidays fun with our elf but we always want to keep the main focus on Jesus! The boys will love adding these new books to their little library. Now off to set an alarm so we remember to move the elf every night 🤣🤣
  • Those Minnesota boys back at it again 😉 Just a few inches of the fluffy white stuff haha. They enjoyed playing in the first real snowfall of the season! They’re both finally in the “love playing alone in the snow” phase and this mama couldn’t be happier 🙌🏼 #lmbpresets #thosehansonboys #mnwinter
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    Those Minnesota boys back at it again 😉 Just a few inches of the fluffy white stuff haha. They enjoyed playing in the first real snowfall of the season! They’re both finally in the “love playing alone in the snow” phase and this mama couldn’t be happier 🙌🏼 #lmbpresets #thosehansonboys #mnwinter
  • A quick snapshot of the sweetest moment between my boys today. We go to a bible study once a week (BSF) and they go to their own classrooms. Even from the first classroom Jax was in as a barely one year old, they’re learning about God. It’s so fun to hear the boys talk about what they picked up, makes my heart explode. But today Jax came running out carrying two tiny crosses. He was giddy to show them to me! When we got to the car he wanted to show Mav and he kept making this shocked/excited face and saying “wook at my cwosses!” (Or when I hear him singing along to worship music on the radio and I want to cry 😍) Days like this morning where we were 10 minutes late make me wonder why it’s worth the effort. But then God showed me that I would have missed out on this moment if I had given in to the ease of staying home. I’m so thankful for the time to grow my own relationship with God but also to see my boys developing their own relationship with Him too 💛😭
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    A quick snapshot of the sweetest moment between my boys today. We go to a bible study once a week (BSF) and they go to their own classrooms. Even from the first classroom Jax was in as a barely one year old, they’re learning about God. It’s so fun to hear the boys talk about what they picked up, makes my heart explode. But today Jax came running out carrying two tiny crosses. He was giddy to show them to me! When we got to the car he wanted to show Mav and he kept making this shocked/excited face and saying “wook at my cwosses!” (Or when I hear him singing along to worship music on the radio and I want to cry 😍) Days like this morning where we were 10 minutes late make me wonder why it’s worth the effort. But then God showed me that I would have missed out on this moment if I had given in to the ease of staying home. I’m so thankful for the time to grow my own relationship with God but also to see my boys developing their own relationship with Him too 💛😭
  • These boys have me WIPED out today! But I’ll still sneak into their room once they’re asleep and stare at them in awe that they’re ours. 💛
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    These boys have me WIPED out today! But I’ll still sneak into their room once they’re asleep and stare at them in awe that they’re ours. 💛