• My thoughts on masks and what’s going on in the world. I’ve been really quiet about this whole C-v thing. Honestly I’ve felt fear around posting and being judged for my opinions. But I feel like we all need to do a better job of hearing one another these days. So let’s just start there. We should try to respect other people for where they are at, and the more we work on removing judgments in all areas of our life, the happier we can truly be. Okay... now let’s talk. We are in what’s called the Great Reset right now. Veils are being lifted all over the place. Truth is coming out. And not everyone is seeing it. Not everyone is waking up. Some people are waking up with anger. Some people are intentionally choosing to stay asleep. Some people are waking up by force... and some are gently coming into the Grand Rising. Everyone’s on their own path. And everything that’s happening right now feels really scary, but we have to remember that there is a lifestyle on the other side of this that is more loving and more free than anything we’ve ever experienced in life until now. The world is in her dark night of the soul. Lives have been lost in the process .. families are struggling.. that’s the truth.We need to have patience, but honestly, it can be triggering AF. When someone tells me I have to put my mask on when I’m in an outdoor farmers market, I feel sick to my stomach.. like someone is controlling me and telling me what to do with my body. The other day I was at the book store and a man rudely command me to lift my mask up so I covered my nose. Honestly, it feels like rape energy to me and makes me extremely uncomfortable... and I’m working through it.. doing my best to acknowledge with gratitude that these wounds are coming up for me to heal. I told Matt today that if vaccines ever became mandatory I would leave the country. It’s a hard no for me. And that’s just my choice. My belief is that something greater is happening in this season... greater than what many of us can see right now...And we are all feeling it in different ways. And if we’re careful, we might learn the very teachings that will save the planet (and us) from this dark night moment
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    My thoughts on masks and what’s going on in the world. I’ve been really quiet about this whole C-v thing. Honestly I’ve felt fear around posting and being judged for my opinions. But I feel like we all need to do a better job of hearing one another these days. So let’s just start there. We should try to respect other people for where they are at, and the more we work on removing judgments in all areas of our life, the happier we can truly be. Okay... now let’s talk. We are in what’s called the Great Reset right now. Veils are being lifted all over the place. Truth is coming out. And not everyone is seeing it. Not everyone is waking up. Some people are waking up with anger. Some people are intentionally choosing to stay asleep. Some people are waking up by force... and some are gently coming into the Grand Rising. Everyone’s on their own path. And everything that’s happening right now feels really scary, but we have to remember that there is a lifestyle on the other side of this that is more loving and more free than anything we’ve ever experienced in life until now. The world is in her dark night of the soul. Lives have been lost in the process .. families are struggling.. that’s the truth.We need to have patience, but honestly, it can be triggering AF. When someone tells me I have to put my mask on when I’m in an outdoor farmers market, I feel sick to my stomach.. like someone is controlling me and telling me what to do with my body. The other day I was at the book store and a man rudely command me to lift my mask up so I covered my nose. Honestly, it feels like rape energy to me and makes me extremely uncomfortable... and I’m working through it.. doing my best to acknowledge with gratitude that these wounds are coming up for me to heal. I told Matt today that if vaccines ever became mandatory I would leave the country. It’s a hard no for me. And that’s just my choice. My belief is that something greater is happening in this season... greater than what many of us can see right now...And we are all feeling it in different ways. And if we’re careful, we might learn the very teachings that will save the planet (and us) from this dark night moment
  • I see a lot of shadowy study in the online space. Women consuming tons of content on how to grow a business, but not working on themselves... Women spending hours of time working on themselves, but not studying their craft. It’s easy to get lost in the study of how to grow a business and avoid looking at your wounds and stories. It’s easy to get wrapped up in inner work, fears, blocks and limiting beliefs without ever having spent time reading a book on business or studying your craft to become a master at what you do. The true mastery of a successful business lies in your ability to juggle three with equal balance and equal love. Today, I challenge you to dedicate yourself to studying one of the three areas here that are off balance for you. Here in lies the key to success. Which of these three would you like to spend more focus on this week?
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    I see a lot of shadowy study in the online space. Women consuming tons of content on how to grow a business, but not working on themselves... Women spending hours of time working on themselves, but not studying their craft. It’s easy to get lost in the study of how to grow a business and avoid looking at your wounds and stories. It’s easy to get wrapped up in inner work, fears, blocks and limiting beliefs without ever having spent time reading a book on business or studying your craft to become a master at what you do. The true mastery of a successful business lies in your ability to juggle three with equal balance and equal love. Today, I challenge you to dedicate yourself to studying one of the three areas here that are off balance for you. Here in lies the key to success. Which of these three would you like to spend more focus on this week?
  • Healing from chronic Illness and my 🍄 revelation: Lyme disease is a really tricky illness that not many people know about or even understand. When I was at my sickest this year, I couldn’t walk or lift my arms some days because of the pain in my body. I slept 18 hours a day and was riddled with fatigue. I had a skin on fire rash that burned my whole being. My brain fog was so bad I even got lost driving to the grocery store and couldn’t remember my birthday. And my depression was at an all time high. It was scary. I felt like I was dying. Since I started my healing journey and doing Bee Venom Therapy (stinging myself with bees) plus kambo and ayahuasca - a lot of my symptoms have started to go away as I dedicate myself to healing the mind, the body, and my spirit. But I still have struggles. Life feels like a rollercoaster. Two weeks out of the month I feel great, alive, and happy... and then it will hit me like a ton of bricks. I still can’t fully read for long periods at a time (my brain gets fogged after 10 pages.) I can’t journal more than a page without my hands hurting. And right now, I’m struggling with bouts of depersonalization - a symptom where you don’t fully feel present in your emotions and the experiences around you (it feels like I’m separated behind a screen wall where I can’t fully feel happiness, love, or even sadness.. I feel numb.) Last night in my mushroom ceremony I cried for this painful process and the weight I’ve been carrying on my heart from it. I want so badly to feel well, and most days, I do. But when these dark nights come, it feels hard. Someone asked me, “how do you handle growing your business and your healing all at once?” I take it one day at a time. I remind myself that if I need to rest it’s okay to do that. I cherish feeling well when it’s here and when it’s not, I slow down. Most of all I give myself permission to be vulnerable with my community. I show up real as myself and trust that being ME is always enough. If you’re going through something behind the scenes right now - just know that it’s okay. You are still worthy of success. And you are enough. You don’t have to be perfect, you just have to be real.
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    Healing from chronic Illness and my 🍄 revelation: Lyme disease is a really tricky illness that not many people know about or even understand. When I was at my sickest this year, I couldn’t walk or lift my arms some days because of the pain in my body. I slept 18 hours a day and was riddled with fatigue. I had a skin on fire rash that burned my whole being. My brain fog was so bad I even got lost driving to the grocery store and couldn’t remember my birthday. And my depression was at an all time high. It was scary. I felt like I was dying. Since I started my healing journey and doing Bee Venom Therapy (stinging myself with bees) plus kambo and ayahuasca - a lot of my symptoms have started to go away as I dedicate myself to healing the mind, the body, and my spirit. But I still have struggles. Life feels like a rollercoaster. Two weeks out of the month I feel great, alive, and happy... and then it will hit me like a ton of bricks. I still can’t fully read for long periods at a time (my brain gets fogged after 10 pages.) I can’t journal more than a page without my hands hurting. And right now, I’m struggling with bouts of depersonalization - a symptom where you don’t fully feel present in your emotions and the experiences around you (it feels like I’m separated behind a screen wall where I can’t fully feel happiness, love, or even sadness.. I feel numb.) Last night in my mushroom ceremony I cried for this painful process and the weight I’ve been carrying on my heart from it. I want so badly to feel well, and most days, I do. But when these dark nights come, it feels hard. Someone asked me, “how do you handle growing your business and your healing all at once?” I take it one day at a time. I remind myself that if I need to rest it’s okay to do that. I cherish feeling well when it’s here and when it’s not, I slow down. Most of all I give myself permission to be vulnerable with my community. I show up real as myself and trust that being ME is always enough. If you’re going through something behind the scenes right now - just know that it’s okay. You are still worthy of success. And you are enough. You don’t have to be perfect, you just have to be real.
  • All these years wasted... I wish I knew that the secret to having all that I ever wanted in my business was through caring for my body. I wish I knew that when I started my business that no amount of hustle or hard work could compensate for an unwell body... and that until I healed my body, and my mind, no amount of money would ever bring me the joy and peace I was searching for. I wish I knew that the secret to success was a clear mind and soul, and the secret to a clear mind and soul was a toxic free body. I wish I knew that pharmaceuticals, alcohol, and processed / chemically manipulated foods combined with an unhealthy lifestyle would only mask the wounds that I needed to look at to be the best version of myself and create the success I truly craved. I am waking up. I wish for the world to wake up. I pray for people to remove toxic food from their life and to stop eating the dead processed foods that are destroying our cells and our souls. I pray for a world where pharmaceuticals are no longer a crutch for avoiding the deeper issues of wellness in the mind and body. I pray for the world to heal. The secret to success does not lie in plowing through your business ignoring yourself. The secret is right in front of you. ♥️
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    All these years wasted... I wish I knew that the secret to having all that I ever wanted in my business was through caring for my body. I wish I knew that when I started my business that no amount of hustle or hard work could compensate for an unwell body... and that until I healed my body, and my mind, no amount of money would ever bring me the joy and peace I was searching for. I wish I knew that the secret to success was a clear mind and soul, and the secret to a clear mind and soul was a toxic free body. I wish I knew that pharmaceuticals, alcohol, and processed / chemically manipulated foods combined with an unhealthy lifestyle would only mask the wounds that I needed to look at to be the best version of myself and create the success I truly craved. I am waking up. I wish for the world to wake up. I pray for people to remove toxic food from their life and to stop eating the dead processed foods that are destroying our cells and our souls. I pray for a world where pharmaceuticals are no longer a crutch for avoiding the deeper issues of wellness in the mind and body. I pray for the world to heal. The secret to success does not lie in plowing through your business ignoring yourself. The secret is right in front of you. ♥️
  • The Rising Sisterhood Mastermind is open for enrollment and I’m already feeling all of the excitement around this container. For two years I’ve been running RSM at a small intimate level and taking in all the data around what a high performer needs to scale her business to multiple six figures. I’ve watched students inside RSM create 100k launches, hit their first 40,000 dollar months, sell out their one on one containers and more. More importantly, I’ve watched women fully embody their highest calling. Inside RSM I’ve watched students quit their jobs to pursue their business full time, step into fully embodying their ideal client mission, and create offers that were truly connected and soul aligned for their mission. The RSM container is a mastermind, but it’s also a program. Every month for eight months we study the 8 principles in the Rising Method to teach you how to expand. With three calls a month, trainings and group sessions with experts like @manifestationbabe , @manifestwithash , @ryanyokome and more - you won’t just be learning from me. You’ll be immersed in study with high level leaders who are scaling their businesses to record breaking levels. Plus we have a full retreat in person in Sedona! All of the details are in my bio. There are limited spots available. The mastermind starts in January but will sell out before then. Questions? You can dm me! Are you ready to rise in 2021?
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    The Rising Sisterhood Mastermind is open for enrollment and I’m already feeling all of the excitement around this container. For two years I’ve been running RSM at a small intimate level and taking in all the data around what a high performer needs to scale her business to multiple six figures. I’ve watched students inside RSM create 100k launches, hit their first 40,000 dollar months, sell out their one on one containers and more. More importantly, I’ve watched women fully embody their highest calling. Inside RSM I’ve watched students quit their jobs to pursue their business full time, step into fully embodying their ideal client mission, and create offers that were truly connected and soul aligned for their mission. The RSM container is a mastermind, but it’s also a program. Every month for eight months we study the 8 principles in the Rising Method to teach you how to expand. With three calls a month, trainings and group sessions with experts like @manifestationbabe , @manifestwithash , @ryanyokome and more - you won’t just be learning from me. You’ll be immersed in study with high level leaders who are scaling their businesses to record breaking levels. Plus we have a full retreat in person in Sedona! All of the details are in my bio. There are limited spots available. The mastermind starts in January but will sell out before then. Questions? You can dm me! Are you ready to rise in 2021?
  • Vulnerable post alert on the lessons I received when Matt came to visit me in Sedona. Some background: I was by myself in Sedona for two months when I finally found my groove. I came here because I had some deep healing I needed to do on my body with Lyme disease and so emotionally and spiritually. Matt was fully supportive and amazing as usual. After two months of being here by myself, I flew home to CT to help him through wisdom tooth surgery, and when he was healed, we took the car and traveled across the country back to AZ together. He spent a month here with me and I learned a lot about myself. Okay... now what happened. First off... it was absolutely magical. We played, we laughed, we cried, we bonded together it was everything we needed. We have a really healthy relationship. But I’m not always “healthy” in how I show up in the partnership. I found myself really being codependent when he was here. I stopped doing the things that bring me joy. I distanced myself from friends and spent only time with him. I avoided meditation and my spiritual practice because I didn’t want to do it in front of him or take time away from potentially spending time with him. I ate foods that I knew weren’t in my highest vibration because I wanted to do what he was doing. I lost my sense of self that I was building independently in Sedona. And that’s when I realized... a healthy relationship is not just about having a good relationship. A healthy partnership is about you being whole and independent, him being whole and independent, and then you two coming together to have a whole beautiful partnership. I realize now that I’ve been carrying old wounds and stories from my upbringing around relationships: programming that isn’t mine to carry. I get to create a sacred healthy relationship and I can allow it to look however I’d like. There is space for me to be me and for him to be him, and then for us to come together. This was such a profound lesson for me and I’m excited to continue to learn on this path of finding myself more deeply. A new layer of learning about my worth and how I can show up more powerfully in the world. It’s all unfolding perfectly.
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    Vulnerable post alert on the lessons I received when Matt came to visit me in Sedona. Some background: I was by myself in Sedona for two months when I finally found my groove. I came here because I had some deep healing I needed to do on my body with Lyme disease and so emotionally and spiritually. Matt was fully supportive and amazing as usual. After two months of being here by myself, I flew home to CT to help him through wisdom tooth surgery, and when he was healed, we took the car and traveled across the country back to AZ together. He spent a month here with me and I learned a lot about myself. Okay... now what happened. First off... it was absolutely magical. We played, we laughed, we cried, we bonded together it was everything we needed. We have a really healthy relationship. But I’m not always “healthy” in how I show up in the partnership. I found myself really being codependent when he was here. I stopped doing the things that bring me joy. I distanced myself from friends and spent only time with him. I avoided meditation and my spiritual practice because I didn’t want to do it in front of him or take time away from potentially spending time with him. I ate foods that I knew weren’t in my highest vibration because I wanted to do what he was doing. I lost my sense of self that I was building independently in Sedona. And that’s when I realized... a healthy relationship is not just about having a good relationship. A healthy partnership is about you being whole and independent, him being whole and independent, and then you two coming together to have a whole beautiful partnership. I realize now that I’ve been carrying old wounds and stories from my upbringing around relationships: programming that isn’t mine to carry. I get to create a sacred healthy relationship and I can allow it to look however I’d like. There is space for me to be me and for him to be him, and then for us to come together. This was such a profound lesson for me and I’m excited to continue to learn on this path of finding myself more deeply. A new layer of learning about my worth and how I can show up more powerfully in the world. It’s all unfolding perfectly.
  • I was hiding for a hot minute. And now I’m backkkkk. I wrote a really long email to my community today about everything I’ve been feeling this year, and why the last few months I’ve felt this resistance to showing up in my business. It’s in my stories with a swipe up if you want to go read it. In January when I set my intentions for the year, I thought this would be the year that everything I saw for myself manifested... The year of VISION. The year all of our dreams come true. “So that means everything I want I get this year, right Universe?” No. In actuality, 2020 was the season where the veil was lifted for so many of us.. and in business, that meant seeing the TRUTH... the real truth of what we are meant to do in life, and being forced to abandon the old ways of operation that no longer serve us. Some of us got REALLLL DEALL initiated into a deep process of struggle this year. For me, that was getting diagnosed with Lyme disease and traveling all the way to Sedona to heal my body. And there I discovered something... I don’t want to just help women in business make money.. I want to help them heal their entire fucking lives. And then all the shadow came up around my change.. “omg will people accept this? If I let go of business babe as my identity, who am I? What even is this business I’m building anyway?” A lot of worry came through. But here’s what I realized ... my life is the vessel for my mission.. and as we grow, our missions grow. The end. Plain and simple. We need to give ourselves permission to do the things that feel good. To live in our truth. To abandon what doesn’t feel good.. so we can fly to our highest power and soar. So get ready my sisters... get ready for a new level, a new me, and a really aligned message that I promise will always come from the heart. I’m back baby. Laurenoflove.com , Lauren of love podcast, Lauren of love on the ig: this is ME.
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    I was hiding for a hot minute. And now I’m backkkkk. I wrote a really long email to my community today about everything I’ve been feeling this year, and why the last few months I’ve felt this resistance to showing up in my business. It’s in my stories with a swipe up if you want to go read it. In January when I set my intentions for the year, I thought this would be the year that everything I saw for myself manifested... The year of VISION. The year all of our dreams come true. “So that means everything I want I get this year, right Universe?” No. In actuality, 2020 was the season where the veil was lifted for so many of us.. and in business, that meant seeing the TRUTH... the real truth of what we are meant to do in life, and being forced to abandon the old ways of operation that no longer serve us. Some of us got REALLLL DEALL initiated into a deep process of struggle this year. For me, that was getting diagnosed with Lyme disease and traveling all the way to Sedona to heal my body. And there I discovered something... I don’t want to just help women in business make money.. I want to help them heal their entire fucking lives. And then all the shadow came up around my change.. “omg will people accept this? If I let go of business babe as my identity, who am I? What even is this business I’m building anyway?” A lot of worry came through. But here’s what I realized ... my life is the vessel for my mission.. and as we grow, our missions grow. The end. Plain and simple. We need to give ourselves permission to do the things that feel good. To live in our truth. To abandon what doesn’t feel good.. so we can fly to our highest power and soar. So get ready my sisters... get ready for a new level, a new me, and a really aligned message that I promise will always come from the heart. I’m back baby. Laurenoflove.com , Lauren of love podcast, Lauren of love on the ig: this is ME.
  • Real relationship talk: Matt left Sedona today and now I’m back to being here solo for the rest of 2020. Sedona is sacred healing medicine for me. I’ve been doing deep inner work here since I left my CT home for a solo trip on August 8, 2020. Matt was fully supportive because he knew that by me healing we would become closer. Since then I’ve purchased a year lease on a home because my plan of staying two months for inner work and healing was simply not enough. Matt’s going back and forth while we do the long distance thing for a bit. I came here to heal Lyme disease... and as I get better, I find myself doing deeper work on my subconscious: trauma from the past, wounds from childhood, programming from my parents... it’s been a lot. The body and our emotional body are so connected. Matt was here for a month and got thrown into the energy of it all with me: “time for you to heal WITH HIM,” spirit said. Having him come visit felt like I was away in rehab and he was visiting during my process. It was wild. Lots of healing. We grew so much closer together and healed our hearts in ways we didn’t know we needed to. (Podcast coming soon.) But I did notice that when he was here I had such a hard time being present in my own individual lifestyle. Something happened when he came... it felt like I through all of my priorities and passions out the window. I stopped doing the things that were important to me and instead, spent way too much time with him watching Family Guy and eating burgers in bed. What happened? To me, this is a pattern of codependency/enmeshment that mirrors a lot of what I saw growing up. My parents had a pretty abusive relationship and never really supported each other in having independence separate from the relationship. They didn’t really have their own lives... my mom made my dad feel guilty every time he wanted to do something by himself... it created a lot of tension. So here I am realizing that I’m carrying all of these patterns that aren’t mine, and feeling so ready to release them. So tonight I’m going to write myself a letter releasing all of these old patterns that no longer serve me, and reclaiming the ones that do.
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    Real relationship talk: Matt left Sedona today and now I’m back to being here solo for the rest of 2020. Sedona is sacred healing medicine for me. I’ve been doing deep inner work here since I left my CT home for a solo trip on August 8, 2020. Matt was fully supportive because he knew that by me healing we would become closer. Since then I’ve purchased a year lease on a home because my plan of staying two months for inner work and healing was simply not enough. Matt’s going back and forth while we do the long distance thing for a bit. I came here to heal Lyme disease... and as I get better, I find myself doing deeper work on my subconscious: trauma from the past, wounds from childhood, programming from my parents... it’s been a lot. The body and our emotional body are so connected. Matt was here for a month and got thrown into the energy of it all with me: “time for you to heal WITH HIM,” spirit said. Having him come visit felt like I was away in rehab and he was visiting during my process. It was wild. Lots of healing. We grew so much closer together and healed our hearts in ways we didn’t know we needed to. (Podcast coming soon.) But I did notice that when he was here I had such a hard time being present in my own individual lifestyle. Something happened when he came... it felt like I through all of my priorities and passions out the window. I stopped doing the things that were important to me and instead, spent way too much time with him watching Family Guy and eating burgers in bed. What happened? To me, this is a pattern of codependency/enmeshment that mirrors a lot of what I saw growing up. My parents had a pretty abusive relationship and never really supported each other in having independence separate from the relationship. They didn’t really have their own lives... my mom made my dad feel guilty every time he wanted to do something by himself... it created a lot of tension. So here I am realizing that I’m carrying all of these patterns that aren’t mine, and feeling so ready to release them. So tonight I’m going to write myself a letter releasing all of these old patterns that no longer serve me, and reclaiming the ones that do.
  • A big phase of my healing journey is now complete. Matts been with me in Sedona for the last month and we went through some intense healing during his visit. I’ve been distant on social media to be super present in our process healing wounds from six years ago. I’m definitely going to record a podcast about this soon for you all. He’s leaving tomorrow, and now a new chapter of Lauren solo in Sedona begins. I’m excited to integrate everything I’ve learned and really shift into a deeper layer of my own personal power. Oh... and to have some more self care and body movement time. Anyone else eat way too much and work out way too little when they are with their spouse? I have to master boundaries more here. Honestly it’s felt hard to juggle business, relationships, and personal growth lately. I’m deep in a business rebirth & rebrand while also healing from Lyme disease, spiritually tapping in, and working on healing my heart. It feels like a lot. But slowly, this new me is flowing into my business identity and shifts are showing up. We rebranded the Facebook community to “Sacred Success” today and there’s now a link in my bio to join us! We also officially migrated to Laurenoflove.com and later this week we are updating the podcast to Lauren of Love! Bye bye “Business Babe” (I’m recording a video for the Facebook group all about it tonight.) Oh.... and the doors are opening to my high level Rising Sisterhood Mastermind tomorrow... which includes an in person retreat to Sedona. So epic. See? It’s a lot. Plant medicine ceremonies, rebranding team meetings, program launches, and tons of personal growth. But what’s helping me is gentle reminders to myself that empires aren’t built in a day. And neither are the women who run them. 😉 Do you have a lot on your plate lately? Or is it just me? What are you juggling these days? ♥️👇🏼
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    A big phase of my healing journey is now complete. Matts been with me in Sedona for the last month and we went through some intense healing during his visit. I’ve been distant on social media to be super present in our process healing wounds from six years ago. I’m definitely going to record a podcast about this soon for you all. He’s leaving tomorrow, and now a new chapter of Lauren solo in Sedona begins. I’m excited to integrate everything I’ve learned and really shift into a deeper layer of my own personal power. Oh... and to have some more self care and body movement time. Anyone else eat way too much and work out way too little when they are with their spouse? I have to master boundaries more here. Honestly it’s felt hard to juggle business, relationships, and personal growth lately. I’m deep in a business rebirth & rebrand while also healing from Lyme disease, spiritually tapping in, and working on healing my heart. It feels like a lot. But slowly, this new me is flowing into my business identity and shifts are showing up. We rebranded the Facebook community to “Sacred Success” today and there’s now a link in my bio to join us! We also officially migrated to Laurenoflove.com and later this week we are updating the podcast to Lauren of Love! Bye bye “Business Babe” (I’m recording a video for the Facebook group all about it tonight.) Oh.... and the doors are opening to my high level Rising Sisterhood Mastermind tomorrow... which includes an in person retreat to Sedona. So epic. See? It’s a lot. Plant medicine ceremonies, rebranding team meetings, program launches, and tons of personal growth. But what’s helping me is gentle reminders to myself that empires aren’t built in a day. And neither are the women who run them. 😉 Do you have a lot on your plate lately? Or is it just me? What are you juggling these days? ♥️👇🏼