All these clear skies lately 😍 PS. It’s going to be in the 80s today. Say what?!?
Sometimes getting there is just as epic as being there. #adventureelopement
And for today’s happiness, a little bit of nature combined with a little bit of newly married love. Jed and Alix’s day was intended to look a little differently but we re-adjusted due to covid and I’m pretty confident they were not disappointed. ;)
Forever my favorite picture of our fluff. In the midst of all the life and worldly events, we lost our first baby of 9 years suddenly. She was my shadow, the sweetest when she was sweet, the sassiest when she was not. My heart aches daily for her. I would do anything to have her back. I hate that our future now looks so different without her. 9 years is so long yet not long enough when it comes to the lifespan of a cat. I’m doing the “we should have...I wish I...” and I know this hurt will last a lifetime. I know this feeling all too well and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. Work, nature and our sweet Mila are the best distractions and I only hope soon it will begin to feel alright again.
Winter has turned to Spring and somehow it's nearly Summer. The last few months have both flown by and seemed dauntingly long. Sessions and Elopements started back up two weeks ago here and I am SO thankful. They've been a nice little escape from reality and have lightened my heart as I watch stories unfold in front of my lens. I often struggle with what to say on instagram but lately, I've been writing books in my head then frozen at my keyboard. Overwhelmed with emotion in my personal life only amplified by the circumstances of our world and neighbors. I want this space to stay positive but I also want it to be real and the honest truth is that the real is not always perfect, pretty and positive. I want this space to give me the ability to connect with my clients, friends and family on a personal level because I am human and this is a very personal business. I am part of some of the most intimate moments in people's lives so who am I to not share what life looks like right now? If that's not ok, then I guess those people are not for me. So on that note, lots of feelings will likely be pouring out here. Covid is scary. I am petrified of exposing my daughter to the unknown or somehow unknowingly exposing someone else. I am still figuring out how to navigate that. And just when our heads begin wrapping around that, more heartache came our way. While I know the Black Lives Matter movement is not new and we’ve all been living it or living privileged, this shit is serious and matters a great deal. I have a lot of learning to do and want to be the best advocate for my black friends and family. I have lived with white privilege to such a degree that I was actually niave to the fact that people viewed my husband and I as an interracial couple. I didn't even fully begin to realize the implications of my white privilege until my husband told me while I was carrying our daughter that he hoped she would have my skin tone because of discrimination he has experienced in the past. It still makes me sick to my stomach to think about that. That conversation is forever etched into my brain. *Continued in comments*