I’m on my way to Richmond for a weekend with my family to support me after the two hardest weeks of my life so far. This came into the sky on our drive and I believe 100% it is the Lord telling me I’m going to come out of this even better than before, for He is with me. Thankful for His daily reminders, no matter how hard, messy, and tear-filled that day is. 💗
This window light was the most stunning scene ever! You don’t often find beautiful light like this right outside the church gym 🤷🏻♀️
On top of the world 🌥
If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day, so I would never have to live without you. ~Winnie the Pooh • • • Thank you SO MUCH @shellbackphotography1 for these memories of me and my love ❤️
I haven’t been fully honest on here, to my friends and to my clients. I’m working on a period of regrowth and fighting as hard as I can, so in that interest I’m opening up on this platform and being honest about my flaws because I believe you deserve to know. I was diagnosed with severe depression and moderate anxiety in December after struggling with those issues for a few years. The past year has been the most difficult of my life emotionally and mentally. I wake up more often than not and have feelings of darkness and dread and doom for no reason and there’s no way I can shake those feelings off. Today is one of those days on top of being sick, but they’ve been countless the past few months. I put on my outgoing, smiley, bubbly Ashley personality and pretend like everything’s fine when underneath, I’m drowning. Up until now I kept these things from nearly everyone aside from a few people. • • But I’m done hiding what I feel and allowing it to overtake me. I have a God that is steadfast, strong, and always present. I have an incredibly loving boyfriend @camdeninman who meets me where I am and builds me up with encouragement and prayer. I have a caring mother @rcrutcher who will use a 10 minute international call when she knows her daughter needs her. I have a wonderful roommate @sarahhh_dactyl who is always there when I need a hug or new therapeutic tactic to fight my depression. I have friends to reach out to who will pray for me and lift me up at a moments notice. I have so much more to be grateful for and to know I’m not alone. If you’re also fighting your own battle, search your life for the little (and big) things that you are blessed with and know you have an ever-present God that will never leave you on your own, no matter if you’re surrounded by emptiness. I’m terrified to put this out here, but I know it’s a step in my growth and cleansing as I fight through this hard time. The end!